Rough Day

i deleted her off myspace, then blocked her off msn.

i unblocked her off msn, and texted her today saying Goodmorning and have a nice day.


what in the fuck am i doing. i cant stop thinking bout her. does it matter if she thinks of you?

Really, does it actually matter?

YES IT FUCKING DOES.

but you cant do jack shit, jackass.

Conversation with emma:

Allright, for a whole month, this is what were going to do. Avoid all contact, except msn. msn is safe, and that's just to maintain friendship. AVoid all contact. Delete his myspace. Delete his number.

Say hi only if he says hi.

Emma: but he kinda messes with my head on msn too!

Ignore.

one worded answers.

"how has your day been?"

Fine.

"do you still like me?"

No.

Do not give him an idea that you still like him. it shifts power towards him, as he's the one in the relationship.

I know what to do now:

Im jay. and i live a fucking amazing life. my mum taught me to argue whenever possible. She wanted me to be a damn lawyer. everything is logical, and everything happens for a damn reason. Fuck right off if you say you cant do anything That's fucking bullshit- cause there's alwasy something you can do Stop bullshitting yourself by telling that you dont like him/her anymore

Cause we both know you do anyways. Dont bullshit yourself, but do remember that its not gonna work out
You're his/her Ex for a reason

AVoid contact. if he initiates contact, initiate one worded answers. if you see him in person, say hi. Only if he says hi first.

Avoid eye contact. avoid any contact at all.


Emma: what shall i do if he texts me?

one worded answers. if you do not have credit, DO NOT USE YOUR MUM'S PHONE TO TEXT HIM

what if he says ' do you wanna come lakeside with me?' he normanly says that


"am i black?"

Obviously not, so there you go.

he's having trouble, and needs someone to fall back on. picture that he's falling backwards, you dont want to be the person that catches him when he falls. instead you'd want to be the person that pulls him back up. after he falls down


AVOID ALL CONTACT. initiate one worded conversations.

STOP BEING FLIRTY
STOP BEING FRIENDLY
STOP FUCKING EVERYTHING ALLRIGHT?

cause right now you're in a state, where you cant get her off your mind. what in the fuck is that all about? she isnt your damn girlfriend, she's just your ex.

She's taken and happy. get that through your goddamn head. if she isnt happy, then good for her. she chose this path, dickhead. if she is, then good for her.

stop being a mum and keep implying the whole "i told you so." thing with her, cause women run on emotions and not on logic. whoever gives them that sexual vibe will win.


we are not going to initiate any sexuality until 5th of july. until the 5th

FUCING REMEMBER THAT. UNTIL THE 5th you are not to initiate any sexual contact.

"oh Sinful, why the 5th?"

Cause the 5th is upload, and it'll be sarging Olympics. i will use her as a pivot, and if it goes more than that, then Fine.


For now, dont relax. dont step back. actually step forward and take offense. i will not tolerate any bullshit that is sent to my way. Im Jay, and im fucking amazing. it doesnt matter whot he fuck you are, i dont take bullshit from anyone.