Point in time

At this point in time, there's conflict with you and your girlfriend. you cant reach her till later.


Your choice is to apologise, because in reality you HAVE done wrong. you over exaggerated you stupid prick. you over exaggerated to an extent that its not even funny anymore. What in fuck's name were you thinking. Seriously.


The moment you doubt yourself again, go fucking think of this event and analyze, Put your skills to the test. All that RTS gaming, The chess, The psychology, the pre planning, the aspirations to be a Ninja, The training to be as silent as possible.


EVERYTHING.

Go fucking think of it the next time you make a major decicion to fuck up.


You'll get to talk to her in a bit, hopefully you'll get to maintain your status.

Someone Hit me.

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Everything

Just seems to fall into place.


Everything. Im shocked. After kissing the girl of my dreams, an HB 11 i was bitchslapped at how far i am now into the game. it never stops, it will never pause. each and every step i take is part of it. Im walking around a chess board navigating my next victim, hoping that its the right move.


And now personal stuff comes into place, which makes it even better.


I Fear.


I fear that something will take this thing away from me. Something, Somewhere.


its too good to be true. Why is this all going good for me in one goddamn week?

While i see someone i Love burn and cry his heart out, im celebrating my ass off about my sucessess


Chris, Im here for you man. Just let me know if im needed.

College

im Completely owning college, i really cant believe it. everywhere i turn there's someone i recognize, im not limited to just people from my class, i KNOW EVERYONE.


I am the man

The Joker

The Sexy bastard

The irresistable one


Im actively gaming while keeping my girlfriend, take note that i will never cheat on her but im still gaming for my own benefit!


Much love, Jay


oh and, Mikado if you're reading this, i miss you man, sounds gay but i do, avent heard from you in ages!

Girl.

Got a girlfriend, the end. =]


Chick ive been gaming for months now, met her twice, she's my girl now. she was playing hard to get on the 2nd meeting, like proper hard to get that it started to discourage me.


but i went "fuck it" and just asked her out when i was walking home. (via text, cheesey yes i know. bastard..)

How i looked

Forgot to say

Yesterday wasnt that bad as well, I wing'ed my friend with 2 HB's (WHY DID I NOT GET HER NUMBER) and i wanted to do the best friends routine but it'll look really really weird. xD


anywho, got a number off a chick who's seriously in love with me. Seriously.

Met some chick i was gaming in myspace by accident as well. ( we was supposed to meet monday, but she stopped by basildon because it was her grandma's birthday)


Awesome day if you ask me.

Party last night

Completely DOMINATED. And when i say Dominated i mean Proper Dominated. Amogs were seriously crushed. The opposition, a spanish speaking boy was on his knees begging for mercy, that's how dominant i was.

It was to the point that people started asking me if i knew everyone at the party, Where in reality i dont know ANYONE, i only know the celebrant (my cousin) and the other celebrant which is HIS cousin as well.


words cannot even describe how bloody alpha i was. I couldnt talk to one of the HB's there though, Boyfriend round the corner and he's a good bloke to talk with, so i wont even try it. there's 3 hb's in their own little world as well (like the uhh, im too adult for you! group)


I gamed this ugly chick and this other chick for practice though. I tried the spells routine but she caught me with some scientific shit about the muscles and whatnot. xD

Awesome.

In turns out that after an apology for ranting on about her shyness and whatnot, She still hasnt forgiven me.


Now, this moment may lapse in time or whatever, and seriously i know i'll fucking have a change of heart in what, 5 minutes time so im writing this shit down:


First off, She's Gorgeous, beautiful And quite intresting.


Downsides: Too tall, Lives far away, Insanely shy.


Why have i stopped gaming her? Or giving her a massive time out?


Its because she's being such a bitch. End of story. under my fucking household i RULE and you fucking follow. that doesnt mean that i'll disregard what you want, but an apology should be more than enough. Its not about alpha, its about being MYSELF.


If she goes on like this, Say good night. You arent worth my fucking time.

Dissapointment

Im not sure if its my peers or me, but im definitely feeling down. i feel that im gonna be bummed if i do a pick up around my friends (Since i never used to do pick ups with them)


I dont know, i decided to drop kirsty as well. Morals took over above anything else, i'd rather have a clean conscience than a girl whom i know wont last.


Morals over everything.

Guilty my ass.

Fuck conscience. Fuck morales. MY GIRL or say Goodnight.


Finished book 7 in 2 days.

Got my ears pierced


I still... cant get over Approach anxiety. Im still in the zone where im looking for the perfect moment which i know will never come.


Maybe college tomorrow will be different, have i procrastinated more than enough?


I am 100% gonna hit on this girl who's in one of my classess. Im not confident at all bout what im gonna say, but i'll fucking talk to her if its the last thing i do.

That is, of course if i see her through the day. (i'll keep an eye out for her, moreover the other girls)

Harry Crackhead

Im a few pages away from finishing book 6. i gotta finish book 7 in 2 days time. (bearing that i gotta go Ju jitsu Tomorrow and that im getting my ears pierced Monday. College Tuesday.)


Few problems arise, Guilty Conscience, Which was somehow lifted by a few friends off the net. Confusion again, Personal problems, Ignorance. lots of things going on.

The ruddy 12 year old seems intrested in me, Bloody Fuck i wish i could just game her and get it over with. stupid age gap. The middle one is gorgeous too. Too bloody tall though.


Anywho, that's it for now. i guess. You'll hear from me soon!