Sunday 24 August 2008

Insanity. (posted on PP forums)

I just came home from a night of 'Sarging'. there were too many sets to go into detail with. but more importantly i think ive encountered major inner game issues.

I started full on gaming these two chicks, in lieu request of my friend, who thought they were quite attractive. i opened, but seeing that the environment was too loud, and that i had to lean in everytime i talked, i politely asked to go outside where it was quieter so i can run full game on the two set (and introduce my wingman later).

I ran full game. Best friend's test, a lot of cold reading, Negging on both targets (Shotgun negs) and after i inquired to my wing which he would prefer, i negged HIS target in order to have a little conspiracy againts me. (a sacrifice, i would seriously give up that 2 set just for him.)


Halfway down the line, i seriously could not be arsed for any more canned lines. and i seriously disliked their attitude. I ejected, leaving my wing to put his game on (he's got natural game, his sticking point is just the approach)

I started to game a few other chicks. such as this HB 8, but there was an AMOG that i couldnt get rid of. (there was obviously attraction between them)

Im 100% sure that if i had the right mindset, i could destroy this guy easily. but by this time everything was going downhill.

I gamed this other set. halfway through my material the friends would go on to have girl talk, and i'd stand there awkwardly. i'd happily eject and socialise with other people.


There were a few more similar sets like this. but i couldnt be arsed to do anything or escalate for that matter. The music playing was crap. there was no one intresting dancing. there were a lot of 30-50 year old men and women standing around.

Take a mental note that im 17. and most of the people that i expected to be there would be 15-18.

No, im not turning gay.

The rest of the night was complete shit. "think fun, Not outcome". i kept saying that to myself. but the fun never came. it wasnt fun. Gaming for me started being a hassle. I feel like i have to flirt with someone. i have to run full game on someone. i have to DhV using magic,DhV spike, i have to watch out for IoI's and body language. i have to bullshit and coldread. i have to look for potential targets.

Its Insane. Gaming is seriously driving me nuts.

I seriously dont know what i want anymore.

After the 9 month LTR i had, i figured i'd mess around abit. i k-closed a few girls under a month. i think the headcount was 4. in a month. that's 1 every week.

This girl popped up. and i was seeing her for a while. she turned out to be a right dick and gave me the LJBF speech.

Screw her.

And this is where i am now. Aimless. Im sorry, i felt like sharing my thoughts with you guys first before i fully decide that i need counselling. or therapy. or whatever..

Its such a hassle going into a forum and finding out 1237198372918732173 million other people with friggin problems. Mostly with the word "ASAP" or the titles in block capitals.

I seriously wouldnt mind if no one reads this or no one gives me advice. Fuck it.

Im asking for help, since i clearly dont know what i want out of my life. Im clearly not contented, and i dont want to be the person that everyone avoids just because im clingy and not contented with my own life.

Yes, i acknowledge the fact that i have inner game issues.

The problem is, i dont think i can trace where it started from... or how to resolve it.


Help is muchly appreciated.

Wednesday 20 August 2008

Cherpsing Day.

Okay, Cherpsing day officially started at 12:01 Earlier.

I added this chick, and were currently talking. i just found out she's from manchester though. Shit. Game is Game though. Fuck it.


I was dressed to impress. i had my pimp jacket on, with a hoodie, grey jeans and trainers. I looked fucking Hot.


went to the bus stop, got on the bus and this 3 set entered. Shit. i ddnt open them, i chickened out. Fucking hell.

Walked to the train station, and there was this girl sitting there right opposite me. i opened her. i said something like "are you waiting for some people as well?"

I basically fluffed until i learned that she goes woodlands and whatnot. then mayowa turned up. then emmanuel. we ejected, but i gave her a hug. which is cool. she's like 14.


Ok. its us 3 now. and we walked round for a bit. we found potential targets and they went upstairs. i walked past em. they were choosing underwear. External factors were seriously againts us. i mean who gets opened up while choosing underwear?

Set 1: (2 set)

my 2 wingmen came up. and i said to them "i dont want to open them, seriously they're choosing underwear."

My wingman asked if i want him to opent hem. i said "cool. go on."

he opened the set. said something lame. i entered with a hello. asked them what their name was. SHit, it was going downhill. then they ejected. LOL. we just casually walked away.


Set 2: (1 set)

as we was walking away i spotted an HB 9 going down the escalators. i opened up with a "Hey, what's up?"

and she just stared at me blankly. Oh my flipping god. it was like a 10 second stare. we was on the escalator so everything was moving except the two of us. she ddnt smile, ddnt make any sort of facial movements. jsut stared at me. and then she walked off.

Oh my flipping god, that's rejection to a whole new level! hahahahhahahah!

we approached a total of like 15 sets. or more. to be quite honest.

Set 3: (2 set)

1 of them was sitting down, and one of them was standing up. I wasnt feeling both of them, so i told my wingmen that it was their time and i'll wing em.

we started gaming, and the HB that was standing up (HB7) was proper on it. the cuter one, who was sitting down was 14. so that's jailbait so scrap that.

we ddnt end up number closing, but i disarmed the Amog nicely. the Amog was the mother.

"Girls, are these boys bothering you?"

Me: No, they actually started talking to us! its well bad!

By this time the mother was laughing. they had to eject afterwards.

No number close.

Set 4: (2 set)

Okay, were taking Sarging to a whole new level.the plan was me and my friend would sarge the mum, and then he'll isolate the target.

We did, and i should get a frickin medal for winging, cause he stumbled three times and i saved his ass. as the mother walked off, he isolated the girl, but the mother came back.

my only dissapointment is that my friend ddnt get to number close. which is horrible!

Set 5: (6 set)

My friend wanted to open these girls. just for the fun of it. so we did, and one of em was totally into me. started complimenting everything bout me. it was nuts.

we ran off afterwards when we found out they were younger.

Set 6: (1 set)

She was on her own, and my heart was seriously beating.

i had no opener, SHIT.

I walked past her, and said excuse me and whatnot. i looked up, and everyone was STARING at me. SERIOUUUUSLY i had an audience. just put more pressure. i asked her if she had a name, she said yes, katie. i asked her how old she is.

She said 14.

EJECT!

Set 7: (3 set)

they were sitting down outside mcdonalds. and my friend opened them. i joined in. the HB 8 at the middle was into me. and she had some of my relentless. so did the HB 6 beside her. She said i looked hot. and so did her friend. and so did her other friend.

as we were walking away she said i had a nice bum. she asked if she can grope em before i go. i politely declined.

as i was walking away, my friends were like "what's wrong with you!?"

i called her up, i said "Oi woman! come ere!" and asked for her number and that. had a kiss goodbye too. which is cool.



Set 8: (2 set)

my friend opened them up, he had the fiery ginger one. and i had the cute HB 8. i backed up againts someone, SHIT. fail.

my wingman ejected, leaving me with the ginger one and my target. the ginger one (Clearly the Mother hen) said my friend left. and i replied with:

That's cool. doesnt mean i have to stop talking though.

her: Yes it does.

Me: Eject!

LOL my wingman failed at keeping the amog at bay. hahahah

Set 9 : 2 set

they were sitting down, and one of em was proper cute. my friend opened them up saying that we'll come back for them when they're done eating.

we eventually did after like 30 seconds and started talking and shit. when we got to their age we looked at each other. and just ejected.

they were both 15.

Set 10: 2 set

my friend gaming, my other friend winging. my other friend was failing miserably at winging, so i stepped in.

my friend ejected, and i ejected as well. my target was 14. and the older one (17) was like an HB 7 (up close)



Overall, i got complimented 5 times by different girls (saying im hot. and whatnot) 9failures. 1 number. but it was friggin hillarious though!. =]

Tuesday 19 August 2008

Warning. This is a Ramble Post.

August 19, 2008. its 10:50 am. i woke up 5 minutes ago. actually i lied. i woke up like half an hour ago. but last night i hid my mp3 player under my pillow. and i was listening to the same song over and over again.




That song.

Let the drummer kick. The drummer kick that. im still listening to it right now. wait, i need a piss. brb.

Back.


There's a lot of things flowing through my mind right now. Though i think, Future sinful, that you wont even remember this and prolly smile at the fact that im referring to you as future sinful.

The main thing that im gonna write about today, and this is probably gonna be long. depends if i can be arsed, is about Sarah Allen. Just saying that name gave me shivers. I look back to the first time i met her, to the first time i kissed her. and now. Today.

Yesterday me and steve had a conversation about sarah. I was mentioning that steve overflirts. and doesnt know who's off limits and who isnt. i specifically said to him my thoughts about it.

Funny that it all happens later on. Sarah likes steve. but steve Doesnt like sarah (or so he says) nor will he go out with her, Because of me. cause im his friend.


I wanted to run away. and hope that everything was a lie. everything. i feel betrayed and alone. my army of bitches seems to be nowhere. my loyal friends, seems to have gone. i wish i could be with one girl. and be happy.

That's bullshit sinful. you know that's never gonna happen. why dont you take what 8 said and just be contented?

Game like there's no tomorrow. you are 17 sinful. nearly 18. Nearly fucking 18. by the time you get a car you'll be 19. or 20. and by that time you should be getting laid like there's no tomorrow.

You need to sarge. YOu need to game. You need to do all these things in order to get a chick. if you dont do any of it, you wont get jack shit. you need to approach. you need to do the initial opener, and see how it goes. you need to do all of these things

Dont change who you are. You are childish. FUnny, and very immature. a lot of people dislike you. lets face it. while a million others like you.

This is seriously a ramble post.

Whatever you do. Dont give up. Sarah Allen is only a minor setback. Minor. Yes i did say minor. You're gonna get through this with flying colours. YOu're going cherpsing tomorrow with mayowa and emmanuel. Make sure you approach. no one gives a fuck if you get shot down. and likewise. no one gives a fuck if your friend get shot down. be a good wingman and tell em what to do. but dont laugh.


You should go to steve's picnic thing. Dont be off with steve. try not to. say hi to emma, sophie and demi. wave to sarah, but dont talk to her.

Im quite pissed off. People like steve should be really shot in the leg. he flirts way too much.



Sin, You really need to stop using jealousy with your girls. Seriously. Just have fun. and if they dont like you back, Tough.

Their loss.

what, you're just saying that arent you? no. its seriously their loss. Why the fuck wont they want to be with you sinful? you're incredible smart. Charming, Funny, and you're really intresting.

Where the fuck can you meet a guy who does magic, Ju jitsu and dancing?

there was nothing in your power to stop this allright?

This is called falling down.


Time to get up. and you're gonna do it quick. cause i dont want you moping around and slitting your wrists you fucking emo.

Rejected.


How do you tackle this?

'Cool.'

And move the fuck on. THere is nothing you can do or say to turn back time and make her like you, or prevent steve from talking to her. there is nothing that you can say to make her like you again, Shut the fuck up and listen closely. There are a shitlot of other women there for you to play around with. so stop caring about this one allright?


Currently you have no potential targets. I would say kristy, but she's landing in my friends zone now. the whole jack brown thing is going on a stale for me. i cba to wait.


Just. Shut up and wait for tomorrow yeah? you'll meet new women. dont worry sinful.

i want you to make an approach as well come thursday. and friday if possible.

saturday as well? haha. you're meant to. the thurrock music festival will be laden with new girls for you.



You have far better things to worry bout than sarah allen.

Girls like her arent worth it.

Sunday 17 August 2008

Let the Drummer Kick that.

i just realised something

my targets (in order)

Sophie Outen
Shirley Lester
Sarah Allen
Shanice Hempstead
Stephanie Hewson


What's with the S's?

hahaha!

Anywho, update on sarah. she seems pretty upset that were not talking anymore. i just simply cba. lol

Wednesday 13 August 2008

The player got played

Sinful Just officially landed in the friends zone with sarah allen.

Saturday 9 August 2008

Paul brooks

May i also mention that i met paul brooks here, he's called 'Magic' in the resort, but he's quite an intresting fellow. considering i know a bit bout body language, i can tell a lot about him.

its good that i got a photo of him. i'll upload it later. he taught me a few things, and made me consider a lot of things such as palming and shuffling and whatnot.

Dorset 08

i cant remember much. i was out in dorset with my friend tom from the 2nd of august to the 9th.

The evening was set. i was talking to sarah before tom arrived. as usual me and tom just farted around until we actually had to sleep.

The morning came, and the 5 hour journey to dorsett is here. we mad a few stops, nothing intresting. just laughs. me and tom, and our seperate mp3 players.

the travel there was quite allright. the weather was up and down. there was far too much humor and things going on to actually detail it in a blog post. we finally arrived in dorsett, rocklea park. it looked like a kiddie house.

I was pimped out in my shorts, blue shirt (opened) shades and my headphones. i walked out of the car while my parents sorted out the rooms. i instantly saw an HB 8.

i thought to myself "this is gonna be good." i ddnt open her, as i was clearly instructed by parents to sit in the car with tom. had fun for a bit and whatnot.


me and my family and tom headed for the restaurant for some food. we walked past reception, and there was this cheeky little guy wearing a shirt and was doing crazy man's handcuffs to a spectator. i walked up to him saying "magician eh?" with a smirk on my face. his face lighted up and said "Yes i am" and pulled out a deck of bikes.

This is gonna be good.

He showed me a couple of tricks, a lot of palms andtop changes. i was quite impressed. but not overly impressed. my fmaily and tom said that i should perform for him. so then he knew that i was a magician as well. maybe another amateur that isnt in his leagues. i promised him i'd perform for him later.

we ate dinner and whatnot and we unpacked in our caravan. it was small and tiny. it was allright there.


we headed straight for the indoor pool. we swam a bit, and i kept looking for targets to open. i saw a couple, and then this cute HB 9 kept wanting to swim towards me, but would go back when she's halfway. she had her little sisters to come up to me and ask for my age. its quite cute.

i walked out of the pool a couple of times so they could see my six pack.

Yes. six pack.

i wanted to game, but for the first time ive encountered a problem. my wingman was actually bringing me down. i wanted to spend time with tom for that day instead, which was a right laugh. we played a lot of pool and arcades and whatnot.

we were bored shitless. so we went to the shop to buy a tennis ball. we played with that for a bit, then a kid on a skateboard walked past with music blaring out. i think tom asked him what band it was and then he replied "bullet for my valentine" or something. then tom went "good boy." or something. i can tell we'd get along later on.

Come the night time, at around... 9 ish, my parents asked us to come to the showroom. we stayed there until it ended. they left halfway. the "funstars" (people who worked there) asked people to dance and stuff, and the most energetic would get a free champagne bottle.

me and tom started dancing on the tables. haha. was a right laugh. we then started to make our way to the play park. where we were bored shitless. we ddnt win the booze. assuming that its because we were both underage. hahaha.

anyways, i climbed up the play thing. and the same kid was there. with his skate board. so we started talking to him. his name was Lee buck. and he was from folkstone. we started talking for a bit. he was quite allright. i cant remember much bout what we talked bout. but we just sat down on the little chairs there for the night really.

The next day i hit the pool early.
we hung out with lee most of the time and because he's a dance machine freak, we were sorta there a few times. there was this girl with a piercing on her lip, and we thought it was snakebites. Her name was Annie, quite petite, massive teeth but she knew how to dress. tom started talking to her, and she ended up hanging out with us at the playpark. she was with this kid named adam, who was some fat sorta chav loser that plays rugby. Adam is amazing. not because He IS amazing but instead its because we take the piss outta him and his driving game. (more to that later)

us lot went to the club while annie and adam went home.

some drunken dude was dancing and was asking for a few chavs to get up and dance. soulja boy came on and this kid named josh( annoying twat) and Tom started dancing to it.

Closer came on after that and i just crip walked, glided and whatnot. they started applauding and called me the filipino chris brown. it was exhilarating. i ddnt have any routines or anything, i just freestyled, felt the beat and started crip walking, gliding and moonwalking. as well as body popping.

we met lauren the next day. she's quite an intresting girl.surrounded by 3 of her manly cousins, adam, ben and ryan. Ryan is the cute little sensitive one. adam is the scary one, and ben is the oldest but looks wacky.

I'd say lauren's an HB 9. but a +1 cause of her personality. she's a bit too tall for me, and i'd really rather not get on her and never talk to her agian like all the other people ive met in this holiday. we started talking for a bit, and in between i managed to game 2 HB 9's that were being gamed by other dudes. now the other dudes were the ones that called me the next chris brown, so i'd rather spare them the trouble of having to out amog me and just leave them targets. im out to have fun, not cause trouble. girls aint worth the trouble. specially when it results in me not having fun.

The next day we were all at the pool. Annie, me, adam, tom and lee. i was just swimming by the edge of it when i spotted a HB 8. i started gaming her, but had to quickly eject. my opener was like "aww did your friend leave you?" (situational opener) and sorta mvoed on from there. i got distracted cause my friends taught i was leaving them and whatnot, which was a no no. failed set. ah well.

cant remember what happened next, lol. ahh yeah i think i started gaming Kerry, which was the sister of the first chick that wanted to game me. that sorta failed. i cudnt be arsed to game this chick as well. seriously.

i cant remember what happens in between. i'll just tell the highlights.

i was in the pool with the few kiddies. and i wa sin the shower. this cute chick and her ugly friend walked in. Luckily enough it was facing the pool so they could still see me. both of them dived in and one of my minions heard that the ugly chick went "phwoar look at that boy in the shower". Score. i left afterwards and glanced at the pool. i can tell theyre still talking about me. =D

sorta talked to em both later on, then they inviuted me back to their acaravan, i had a lot of kino going on with that chick. that sorta failed when her brother came in and grassed us up. i ended up having to be kicked out and never talking to them two again until friday. (this was like wednesday) i ddnt even K-close. but i managed to do the slick

" kiss goodbye?" Closer.

wow, smooth. and the thing is i just thought of that like 3 seconds before i asked her to kiss me on the cheek. lol

come to think of it, both of em opened me first. cause they screamed out "FITT!" as i walked past. waved to them and carried on my way to the showroom.

TOm and lee wanted to do the karaoke, chop seuy. and i managed to catch it on video, i'll upload it later. it was quite funny.

i also met these two girls, Iona and Steph. they were quite entertaining and were 'stuck' with these two chavs. the two chavs were allright and i had no trouble disarming both of em.

i can tell that iona was intrested, while steph was quite not there yet. iona was HB 7. Steph was HB 8. i'd opt for steph any day.

cut the long story short, push and pull and whatnot. i isolated her and kissed her, she's a bad kisser. her lips are somewhat rough.and she smelt strongly of deodorant. i disliked it.

i havent gotten on her since then.

what other highlights ahve i got? loads of dance off's which got me a lot of hand shakes and compliments.

to the point where someone thought i was a professional dancer and i should consider it as a career. a guy was practically screaming at his girlfriend on his phone saying "this guy is the sickest dancer ive ever seen in my life!!!!!"

haha.

anyways, we met a few more people like hayley and Jamie. with their fitt little sister whow as like 14. fucking hell why does she have to be so fitt and so young. bastard.

anywyas, i went karaoke with hayley, and my voice really sucked ass. damn it. i overshadowed her, which is horrible.

also met this girl named jade, more like a buddy tag along than a target.


at the last night i wanted to fuck steph, but i seriouslky cudnt be arsed. this scottish chick appeared outta nowhere as well.

ON MY LAST FUCING NIGHT
how bad is that?

good holiday overall. loads of memories.

Specially adam's driving game.

LOL