Warning. This is a Ramble Post.

August 19, 2008. its 10:50 am. i woke up 5 minutes ago. actually i lied. i woke up like half an hour ago. but last night i hid my mp3 player under my pillow. and i was listening to the same song over and over again.




That song.

Let the drummer kick. The drummer kick that. im still listening to it right now. wait, i need a piss. brb.

Back.


There's a lot of things flowing through my mind right now. Though i think, Future sinful, that you wont even remember this and prolly smile at the fact that im referring to you as future sinful.

The main thing that im gonna write about today, and this is probably gonna be long. depends if i can be arsed, is about Sarah Allen. Just saying that name gave me shivers. I look back to the first time i met her, to the first time i kissed her. and now. Today.

Yesterday me and steve had a conversation about sarah. I was mentioning that steve overflirts. and doesnt know who's off limits and who isnt. i specifically said to him my thoughts about it.

Funny that it all happens later on. Sarah likes steve. but steve Doesnt like sarah (or so he says) nor will he go out with her, Because of me. cause im his friend.


I wanted to run away. and hope that everything was a lie. everything. i feel betrayed and alone. my army of bitches seems to be nowhere. my loyal friends, seems to have gone. i wish i could be with one girl. and be happy.

That's bullshit sinful. you know that's never gonna happen. why dont you take what 8 said and just be contented?

Game like there's no tomorrow. you are 17 sinful. nearly 18. Nearly fucking 18. by the time you get a car you'll be 19. or 20. and by that time you should be getting laid like there's no tomorrow.

You need to sarge. YOu need to game. You need to do all these things in order to get a chick. if you dont do any of it, you wont get jack shit. you need to approach. you need to do the initial opener, and see how it goes. you need to do all of these things

Dont change who you are. You are childish. FUnny, and very immature. a lot of people dislike you. lets face it. while a million others like you.

This is seriously a ramble post.

Whatever you do. Dont give up. Sarah Allen is only a minor setback. Minor. Yes i did say minor. You're gonna get through this with flying colours. YOu're going cherpsing tomorrow with mayowa and emmanuel. Make sure you approach. no one gives a fuck if you get shot down. and likewise. no one gives a fuck if your friend get shot down. be a good wingman and tell em what to do. but dont laugh.


You should go to steve's picnic thing. Dont be off with steve. try not to. say hi to emma, sophie and demi. wave to sarah, but dont talk to her.

Im quite pissed off. People like steve should be really shot in the leg. he flirts way too much.



Sin, You really need to stop using jealousy with your girls. Seriously. Just have fun. and if they dont like you back, Tough.

Their loss.

what, you're just saying that arent you? no. its seriously their loss. Why the fuck wont they want to be with you sinful? you're incredible smart. Charming, Funny, and you're really intresting.

Where the fuck can you meet a guy who does magic, Ju jitsu and dancing?

there was nothing in your power to stop this allright?

This is called falling down.


Time to get up. and you're gonna do it quick. cause i dont want you moping around and slitting your wrists you fucking emo.

Rejected.


How do you tackle this?

'Cool.'

And move the fuck on. THere is nothing you can do or say to turn back time and make her like you, or prevent steve from talking to her. there is nothing that you can say to make her like you again, Shut the fuck up and listen closely. There are a shitlot of other women there for you to play around with. so stop caring about this one allright?


Currently you have no potential targets. I would say kristy, but she's landing in my friends zone now. the whole jack brown thing is going on a stale for me. i cba to wait.


Just. Shut up and wait for tomorrow yeah? you'll meet new women. dont worry sinful.

i want you to make an approach as well come thursday. and friday if possible.

saturday as well? haha. you're meant to. the thurrock music festival will be laden with new girls for you.



You have far better things to worry bout than sarah allen.

Girls like her arent worth it.